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Freaking stressed over the coming exam, kept telling myself not too result oriented as I should enjoy the process and understand the learning.  

Got one of my module result last night and I did quite badly, though I managed to passed the module but the result is far from what I had expected and is breaking my record getting a new low! Ok lah.. I did not really felt upset or super emo, I look at the result and told myself.. yeyyy.. at least is a passed!  I am kind of shocked by my own reaction and if in the past, I will cry very hard and insomnia but last night after completed revised for my exam, I slept like a pig! Yes.. I finally 放得下.  

Last week while driving back home, I saw a few construction site foreign worker, they lying down on the grass beside the road during the night time chatting with friends and making phone call. The first thing came to my mind is errkkkk... so dirty! The grass got dog poop or not? Got insect or not? After reaching home, I suddenly kind of enlighten by what I had seen. 他们么什都没有，所以他们放得下也很开心，我们什么都拥有所以放不下。。很不开心。Think of this, I felt that I am a pitiful person cos I did not learn to let it go and make myself so unhappy though I have better life than those foreigner worker.

Weeks ago, I saw an article from 白龙王, he said 「學習放下」 人生像一只皮箱，需要用的時候提起， 不用的時就把它放下，應放下的時候，卻不放下， 就像拖著沉重的行李，無法自在。 At that point, I dunno what he meant.. Now I think I am kind of understand.

 Ok lah.. You all dun thought that I have learnt to let go then tomorrow you will see me lying down on the grass with the construction worker lah!  Lolx.. 

I suppose to mug for my coming Saturday exam but mind blocked and I suddenly think of color my nails.. I want a colorful one!  Tadahhhh...... see..Colorful till my mood also lighten up! happy 不 happy? 

But also at the meanwhile, I messed up my room. My bed full of my exam notes and books!

Already break for an hour and gotta pull myself back to the books now.. 

Happy Sunday ya~